Last spring, I began the process of pivoting Big Spoon Co. We were on a path to transition from an agency focused on marketing to one focused on staffing for food businesses. I may have met with you about this and I’m sure you felt my excitement.
I’ve had to withdraw those plans over this past several months because of what felt like a public breakdown. I have never felt more embarrassed personally or professionally.
I get it. What follows might be TMI, some word garble and unnecessary coming from a company website. Running a small business can be messy and there still isn’t strong dialogue about mental health in this world. Also, I've never navigated this before, so I'm doing my best to turn the experience into a positive.
In the span of one week in May, I bid $25,000 on an food truck; convinced my business launch team to travel to Asheville, NC, including flying in one partner for the day and having a cameraman film the trip; planned a launch team meeting in Richmond that included booking a hotel suite and limo transportation and dropping $10,000 on computer equipment; texted at least one hundred contacts for an impromptu engagement party, got into a car accident on the way to pick up my fiancé, got engaged, wreaked havoc on restaurant and hotel staff at said party, and racked up a $1,500 plus bar tab.
That’s not what I had planned. That's not "normal" behavior. I was having a manic episode.
Through the grace of friends and family, that business meeting turned into an intervention, the food truck was not acquired, computer equipment was returned, and most importantly, I discovered I have the most patient, understanding and loving fiancé.
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, which is something I’ve probably carried with me but kept somewhat managed throughout my life. I'm healing now - I have been. I'm better each day.
Right now, I’m focusing on my current client commitments and taking time for personal discovery while staying open to opportunities for myself and Big Spoon Co. Thank you for understanding. Thank you for your love and support. - Kevin